hello chile!

Chile is amazing.
I can´t explain why I love hearing a different language, like spanish, being spoken all the time. It makes me so happy. The different sayings, the spanish slang, its such a welcomed change.
So there´s the change in language that I love and there´s also the amazing hot weather that is completely welcomed as well. But what I´ve been enjoying the most is going out and talking with my cousin Walter. The last time I came we were all about 13-14 so were shy little kids, but now that we´re grown up it feels like this bond is being formed. I´ve lived my whole life with my family far away, unlike many people who have their family fairly close to Vancouver so getting to know my cousin and actually feeling like family is...it makes me feel all warm inside for lack of a better way of explaining it. I can´t wait to start getting to know my other cousins better as well, I just haven´t seen them yet but its bound to happen.
We´re about to head out for lunch now with my aunt, my cousin and Walter. LATER.

Recuerda

No sigas a un amor que te hizo sufrir, un amor que un día se olvidó de ti y lo peor, un amor que un día se fue de ti. No confíes en alguien que te dijo 'te lo juro', 'que lloró', y luego te reemplazó sin ningún dolor.

> > Recuerda: 'quien se fue sin ser echado, vuelve sin ser llamado!

Translation: Don't follow a love that made you suffer, a love that one day forgot about you and worse, a love that one day left you. Don't trust in someone who said " I swear" and later replaced you easily.

Remember, he who is made to leave, comes back without being called.

august rush

Val can't wait to go to Chile and wishes that Hana will end up coming with her.

there are no words <3

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew* you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

- Jer 1:5

There are no words to express the love I have for this new little human being. When I hear her cry, my heart cries, because she's just so small and helpless, the desire to do something, anything, so comfort her pure little heart, is overwhelming.

Thankfully, she doesnt cry very often. Only when she needs something and not even then. She full out poohed and didnt cry. The only way we knew is because it went through her blanket, LOL! She fusses a little when she's moved. She scrunches her face and makes little tiny noises, as though she were preparing to let out one big cry...but then, she either goes back to sleep, or just keeps looking around. AMAZING.

I always want to be holding her.

I've gotten so use to picking her up and placing her down, its awesome.

AND HER SKIN! So soft!!

I can't believe that something so small, something I can hold using one arm, will over time grow into someone as big as me. I'd like to see someone hold me with one arm! Its an amazing, beautiful process that I'm so thankful I get to be a part of.

quote

Christina: There's a club. A dead dads club and you cant be in it until you're in it. You could try to understand, you sympathize, but until you feel that loss...my dad died when i was nine. George, I'm really sorry you had to join the club.

George: I-I, don't know how to exist in world where my dad doesn't.

Christina: Yeah... that never really changes...


Rom 6:10 The death he died, he died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God.

2Cr 1:9 Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.

2Cr 2:16 To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task?

eMOOO

Remember where you're going
remember where you're from
Remember theres a battle here
whos will is to be won

When the sun does not feel like shinning
and the rain is all you see
Remember there are those who will help you off your knees.

Tomorrow feels so far away
a second turned to years
Locked in a room thats slowly
being filled with all my fears

Hold me now, dont let me go, dont let me slip away
remember that you're needed here in every single way.

I haven't written a poem in so long and lately I've just been listening to def poetry jam and then reading some others people poems made me miss it.

But really, I was just trying to express myself in a way I havent for awhile.

hopeless romantic pt 2

I was re-reading a book I have and I found a line I absolutely loved.

" 'They took Henry Percy from Anne,'I said. 'And she was as much married as us.'
'He was a young lad,' William said. 'No man comes between me and mine.' "

eres narcotica

my tongue is split.
it is forked and steel tipped.
and it will
PUNCTURE and BLEED
you
and if you dont know...
then now you know.

my birthday

my birthday was amazing. i have the best friends anyone could ask for.
they spoiled me rotten and made me feel awesome and i love,love,love them to pieces.
if they fell apart, i would glue them all back up and kiss every piece to put them back together.

bible verse

k so my dad found my old diary with the bible quote in it.
its:

"But the man who commits adultery is an utter fool, for he destroys his own soul. Wounds and constant disgrace are his lot. His shame will never be erased"
-Proverbs 6:32-34

hopeless romantic part 1 (new moon quotes)

I finally got my 'New Moon' back! I'd forgotten that i highlighted parts i really liked through out the book. I'm gonna put them here for easy access when i feel like reading them!

"Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget" pg 117

"It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it" pg 118

"Love didn't work that way, I decided. Once you cared about a person, it was impossible to be logical about them anymore" pg 304

"I felt like a peeping tom, peering through the cracks at a private sorrow that wasn't mine." pg 374

"I would have to commit to this-commit as much of me as there was left, every one of the broken pieces. It was the only way to be fair to him. Would I? Could I?" pg 375

"Even if the love I felt for him was no more than a weak echo of what I was capable of, even if my heart was far away, wandering and grieving after my fickle Romeo, would it be so very wrong?" pg 375

"Not like someone...left her, but like someone died." His voice cracked. It was like someone had died-like I had died. Because it had been more than just losing the truest of true loves, as if that were not enough to kill anyone. It was also loosing a whole future, a whole family-the whole life that I'd chosen.." pg 398

"You're impossible," he said, and he laughed once - a hard laugh, frustrated. "How can I put this so that you'll believe me? You're not asleep, and you're not dead. I'm here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away." pg 510

"...When I told you that I didn't want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy." pg 510

"Why can you believe the lie, but not the truth?" pg 511

"The fairy tale was back on. Prince returned, bad spell broken. I wasn't sure exactly what to do about the leftover, unresolved character. Where was his happily ever after? pg 550

"I squared my shoulders and walked forward to meet my fate, with my destiny solidly at my side" pg 563


BUUU-YAAAAAA!

i love stephenie meyer books.

"My dearest Allie"

"My dearest Allie
i couldn't sleep last night because i know that its over between us. I'm not bitter anymore because i know that what we had was real and if in some distance place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more. That plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds and that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give to you forever.
I love you, ill be seeing you,
Noah."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJFPLuCdtGI



Ugh. These kind of things make my heart melt. Confessions of love. They're the best. I have recently made a playlist on my youtube account with clips i love from all the mushy love moments in movies.

Im such a loser.

power of a smile

Today was pretty super. Hung out with my buddy Charles after school. We drove around and he took me to DQ. Yummy-Yummy. I also loved the conversations we had. I love deep conversations. When you can totally just say what you're thinking and know the other person wont judge you or anything. Good conversations come from those scenarios.

UM, UM what else happened today?
Well I think I'm starting to move on from my...confusion on the Holocaust. For awhile I've been so stuck on the fact that all the Jewish ppl who were killed, who were persecuted for their faith, are going to hell based on my beliefs. What I believe says that all those ppl, who I'm thinking we could classify as martyrs are going to hell. Thats been heavy on my heart for awhile. Especially since we had a survivor of the holocaust come to our school the other day to tell her story.

Today I asked myself, 'Well why do I feel so sad about this situation? What about EVERYONE ELSE in the world who dies without knowing God? Without knowing Jesus?" I mean, the holocaust was a horrible thing. Terrible. Even more so because alot of people justified the persecution of the Jews because they blamed them for the death of Jesus.

Christians killing in the name of Jesus.

How messed up is that?
How unbelievably twisted?


I was talking about this with a friend and she said how maybe the Holocaust was God way of telling the people to start accepting Jesus because he promised all this stuff to them but by rejecting Jesus he couldn’t give it to them... i dunno.. it still seems cruel.

On a lighter note. I found a poem I love that i had forgotten about but now have found!

The power of a smile by Tupac

The power of a gun can kill,

And the power of fire can burn,

The power of wind can chill

And the power of the mind can learn

The power of anger can rage inside,

Until it tears you apart,
But the power of smile, especially yours,

Can heal a frozen heart.